I've lived through a lifetime of trauma that probably would've killed most people. I've survived the suicides of 2 siblings, years of physical and emotional abuse, divorce, bankruptcy, foreclosure, health issues etc., etc.
Fortunately, I found my way to the Unity Church 25 years ago and have been on a self-improvement/spiritual path ever since. I've been choosing positive thoughts to 'deliberately create' a better life. Even so, adversity is persistent.
Over the past year, the focus and intensity of my spiritual quest has increased as I've recognized the urgency of these pivotal times. (Course graduates know what I'm talking about.) My goal is to be the proverbial 'beacon of light' to help others in need.
Then, a few weeks ago, I found myself in a bizarre situation with people I can only presume are crazy. I was their tenant for 6 weeks. The couple (in their 60s) rented me an apartment that turned out to have a severe water intrusion/mold problem. At first, I tried to make the best of it (not wanting to move again). But my request for a dehumidifier was met with wild accusations and demands for more money. Through it all, I managed to answer them logically, without arguing or sinking to their level, and with as much love as I could muster for them. In the end, I realized that I had to move out for the sake of my health -- body and soul.
That's when things got really ugly. The story is too long and sorted to relate here. The short of it is, these people inflicted unimaginable trauma (and stole from me), yet even after I walked away without so much as an angry word, they continued to make threats against me. I chose to ignore them, which finally put an end to their torments, but I've had flashbacks and nightmares for weeks. I, who am never sick, just had 2 back-to-back illnesses. I feel like I've suddenly been psychically attacked by dark, sinister forces. But why? It's been a slow climb back to recover my strength.
So, I can't help wondering... what did I do to draw this bizarre situation into my life? I thought I had learned these lessons years ago. I thought I was no longer a vibrational match to such things. Is this some kind of a test? Does it ever end? Shouldn't my life be getting easier after all my spiritual work? Am I paying some karmic debt from another lifetime? What's the point of taking the "high road" if such ambushers are waiting to knock me off my path?