Journey to the Other Side of the Veil

Hey beautiful Gathering Spot friends,

I thought some of you might be interested in a powerful experience I had yesterday traveling beyond the veil. Take care and have a beautiful week ahead.

With abundant love and joy,
Fred

A wonderfully intense Bikram yoga session takes me fully to the other side of the veil
Feb. 11, 2012

Knowing how powerful many of my once-a-month Bikram yoga sessions have been for me, yet also not attached and open to whatever might happen, I set my intention for the class this afternoon on my bicycle ride there.

I decided I'd love to explore a profound fear that has come up for me on several medicine journeys. It is my fear of actually being the Creator and how lonely and crazy that can be. I have touched this place to varying degrees on several medicine journeys, including one ayahuasca and two MEO journeys where I fully became the Creator, yet had a real mix of feelings around that.

Along with this, I wanted to explore the concept of all consciousness in the universe eventually evolving to merge back into oneness, into one consciousness, and my fear that this could actually cause eternal boredom, and even worse, erase all of the rich experiences of creation that have resulted from our not being all one.

As I arrived and set up my mat at the studio, I opened to feeling my connection with everyone present. Feeling this richness of connection, I chose to set a second intention of breathing sacred love with everyone there. As I opened to this, I could feel how every person has a gift for me and breathed that into my being.

Aware of my tendency in the past to want to be better at the poses than others, I instead focused on my desire that we all shine and support each other in the poses, that we all grow and progress in our practice. I was thrilled that once class started, the old competitive thoughts rapidly faded and completely disappeared as I opened to deeper connection.

Due to the unusually intense heat and a very supportive instructor, I found my consciousness shifting earlier in the class than usual. Not long after we started, I found my awareness shifting back and forth between being in the room and then in the intensity of some of the poses leaving this three-dimensional reality as my consciousness became aware of nothing but the intensity brought on by the 105-degree heat and the challenging yoga poses. As these intense moments continued, I managed to use my will to increasingly focus on breathing sacred love with all in the room and with all beings even in the midst of the intensity.

As I did this, I felt my consciousness begin to expand beyond the veil into much deeper connection. As it expanded, I could feel many layers of consciousness opening to me. Before long, after going in and out of this expanded awareness and connection several times, I was surprised to have my consciousness expand to the point where I felt myself directly connecting with the energy of the Creator of all.

Yet I didn't become the Creator as I had on those previous journeys, but rather communed with it. I could feel myself experiencing the aspect of oneness of the Creator, yet at the same time I was aware of my own individuated consciousness separate from the Creator. It was as if my consciousness both merged and danced with this amazingly expanded consciousness.

As my consciousness shifted through the succession of yoga poses, I explored the many levels of connection between me and the Creator. After that initial beautiful connection with the Creator, I saw extending out from Creator many layers or levels of collective consciousness like thick layers of branches from a tree extending out from the trunk. I also saw that in some layers, particularly those closer to our normal reality, there was a split between beings which oriented themselves towards service to self and those oriented towards service to others there. I fully welcomed all beings of both orientations, knowing that my unwavering desire to live in service to all fully embraces serving both myself and others.

As I then repeatedly expanded all the way to that place of connection with the Creator, I felt the rich love of the Creator flowing out to me and to all in its creation. And I also felt my love flowing out for the Creator and for all creation.

Eventually I found my consciousness almost totally on the other side of the veil even as my body did the successive yoga poses. In this highly expanded state outside of linear time, I suddenly saw that there is really no reason for fear or anxiety. From this transformed perspective, everything is simply as it is and is expressing as it naturally does.

I could see that fear and anxiety are rooted in the experience of linear time and concern for the future. In the space beyond linear time, there is no judgment. There is no good or bad. There is simply a grand unfolding of all consciousness expressing and interacting with All That Is. Understanding this in the depths of my being, I could feel myself very content to release another layer of concern about the future. I knew that in this greatly expanded realm that feels much more real to me than "normal" reality, the future as we know it does not even exist. All that exists is consciousness continually experiencing itself in the eternal now.

In this highly altered state, I was thrilled to experience the magic of simply allowing the Creator and all creation to express through me. There is great joy and beauty in this kind of surrender. Yet I also saw how my intention of what's best for all beings, of nurturing all life to it's highest motive, added a rich flavor to the experience of consciousness expressing through me. I saw that it's clearly not just about surrendering to what's best, it's about making clear choices which direct consciousness as the universal energies flow through my field. I call this creative surrender.

The choices I make are my contribution to the collective consciousness. They are my gift to the universe. I saw how my choice to allow all energies of the universe, including both dark and light energies, to flow through me and to join with me in co-creating our reality naturally engenders a greater space in me and a relaxation of my being. I felt a bond of brotherhood with all beings in the universe. I could feel how the dark energies particularly welcomed this from me as so many in our day-to-day world don't see the value of dancing with the shadows.

I saw, too, how my high level of non-attachment allows magic and miracles to flow more easily in my experience of life. I could feel myself enjoying the experience of just being, of simply allowing the many levels and layers of the creation which interact with my consciousness to flow through me in a most magical and mysterious way that enhances the experience of life for me and for all of us.

Upon completion of the yoga class and afterward, I was amazed at how long in terms of the linear time of this side of the veil I experienced this other side of the veil way of being. Even after getting home, my consciousness continued to play and explore in this magical space while lying in my bed for three hours or so drifting between sleep and this place of expanded awareness.

Only with some reluctance did I gradually pull myself back into normal reality. Yet this reluctance was balanced by excitement at attempting to put into words this rich experience, as I know that I often forget what I experience on the other side of the veil unless I write it down soon. I love the experience of writing this as a powerful reminder to myself.

And I see now how I can more easily choose to go back to this place when my intention and the call to go is there for me. In my minds' eye, I can almost see the bridge to the other side of the veil as a narrowing, focused aperture in consciousness which is available and opens only when the conditions are right. Yet I am learning more and more how to shift my consciousness so that it is aligned with the conditions which open that bridge for me.

Very cool stuff!!! Thank you Bikram, thank you Creator, thank you me, and thank you to all of you and All That Is for this most rich and profound experience!