Hopi Elders Speak

I recall posting this some time back, was on someone elses post so have lost it, however rereading it is right on point for me right now.

"Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary."

These words ring so true for how my life can be, still coping with the whole BiPolar thing, I have many moments of struggle in my mind, which then of course manifest into my day. I am just now dragging myself through another low period, what I have found though is these periods are lessening in length and strength.

I know somehow all of this has a reason and is definetly part of my growth, self belief is gaining strength as I come through each period.

Thanks again Chris, I will print it out this time to remind me "I am the one I have been waiting for" :) 

    Man! is it ever ! ........More to come !!!!!........T

"There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly."  Things are definitely reving up.  Ian, you spoke of polarity and I can't help seeing that increasing everywhere these days.  I feel it within myself at times to where it's almost more than I can take.  I came home late last night and my street was blocked off, cop cars and fire engines everywhere.  Someone was holed up in a nearby building and had fired thirteen rounds at the police.  These signs of desperately holding to the shore are all around.  I feel myself gripping too tightly at times, and I try to tell myself to let go, yet situations and circumstances have a funny way of getting right to the heart of my fears lately, as if continually casting me into the fire, brutally testing my resolve while at the same time lovingly trying to burn off my hard edges, the hard edges I know all too well are still there.  My mother recently had gall bladder surgery and is now drifting aimlessly in a sea of depression, listlessness, lack of appetite and forgetfulness, even falling at times, thanks to the revolving coctail of accepted medicine.  They make her dizzy.  She feels fear.  I try to get through to her but she can't hear.  To make it worse she lives two states away so it's rare I even see her.  No one likes to hear their mother can't take care of herself.  It's hard not to take that personally, I must be there for her yet remember it is her journey.  I offer her my love, and my body if she needs it, and I do my best to smile and push away from the shore.

  but then I remembered this song......http://youtu.be/iD67wlWhC6U     this is perfect !!!!! he wrote this as a kid, a couple of years later he was at woodstock.and you might want to check out this one too,operation spirit......http://youtu.be/hMUr0NRAn1A      These kids were so intense back then,,they couldn't even mike the drummer in a club,,he beat every word of the song,,,from the days of the moshpit !!!  Let it gooooooooo !......one of the best shows I ever saw....

  And Francis, i am lucky that my mom remarried, and is doing quite well at 75. We were very close when I was back in high school. she had been awakened, studying astrology and channeling with some people from the Cayce institute. she used to feed me so much information. i would write term papers in my alternative high school , cross referencing carlo castaneda with ruth montgomery !,ha ! stuff like that! I was so lucky she was there back then. When she remarried, she lost interest in all that, and I held it against him for a while, as he is just a nice, ordinary, but stuck,,,guy..I let that go many years back,and am just happy now, that she has this refuge. We lost our connection, but she has a safe place to ride things out...they just finished renovating a place to live their days out,so to speak, and are moving in next week. i called her yesterday, and told her to stock her new shelves with a month's worth of stuff as soon as she got in....she questioned me about it, so I talked with her about it,,but just a little, as she hasn't been receptive to new info for several years now....but she agreed to do it....So I guess we are all still there for each other in some capacity along the way. It might not seem that we are getting through, but we do on some level....Peace to you !

 And Chris, I am glad your in the river too brother !!! might be seeing you soon ! If the airports aren't shut down when I try to come back ! ha !

   When is this hopi quote from ? I was just wondering when it was spoken. When I got to hang with the Incan elders, back in 97,98, they were planting 4 golden staffs on 4 points of the planet . I believe this was the beginning of this last cycle on the mayan calendar. They believed they were connected to the Hopi, so one of the staffs was planted during a week long gig in canyon de chelly,Arizona. One of the most amazing weeks of my life, no doubt. i camped in the next tent from them for 10 days. the Hopi, and Navajo elders were present at times during the week too. So much happened there,I could write about it for hours. so I was just wondering if that was spoken around the time of the "beginning of the end ", or more recently...

    I have to say I am a little torn here right now, being told to "let go" of everything. I have just found this amazing person who I seem to be aligned with so perfectly, and actually feel a little guilty wanting to be with her so bad. It is a first for me, having never even considered being married. and she is not aware, consciously anyways, of things at hand. but I sense her quest for change is coming from the same place, and still hope we can ride this out together. I feel like the timing might just be perfect, if we get through the communication barrier, as we are so aligned, I believe we can accomplish great things together, if nothing else, generating a lot of love around us to help others stay calm.....T