Are You Bored? What Boredome Really Means From a Spiritual Perspective: http://youtu.be/eCBRww_Lw_s
The past couple weeks, I've been moving from feeling far too busy to feeling de-motivated and bored. I sense there's an opportunity to let go of some old patterns and move on to something new and unfamiliar, but it isn't clear to me yet. So I found this video and thought it was worth sharing. I feel like what I need to do is slow down, be with this unsettledness, and stop trying to run from it with distractions and busy-ness. Even coming to this forum and keeping up with it and making posts feels like part of my mind's 'make-work' it's assigning itself. I want to move forward to the next thing and allow my reality as I know it to shift, instead of continuing to distracting myself from this nagging feeling until it moves along. This is the practice of heart virtues and transformation in action! Sometimes it's facing the gritty, yucky stuff and acknowledge the change that needs to happen.
I think for me it means making a career change, perhaps before things are nicely lined up, and that's scary to me, which is why I'm having a hard time flowing with it. I'm trying to do it gradually, first sell the house and then look at shifting careers. It's an awkward in between point, and I'm used to making decisions with the left brain. I would like to just let everything go and be in the moment, but over-thinking everything and being tense all the time is a huge habit for me.
- A bored, anxious, and unsettled Trish
Well, except for the part aboout selling the house, as I don't have one. But I just returned from China with the same feelings. It's not a new feeling, it just finally got strong enough for me to walk away. You know, I have been over it so many times. At critical times in my life, the doors have opened for me and I have been able to leap gracefully from one life to the next. The difference this time is that I haven't found anything that has any "heart" in it, other than trying to move back closer to my son. So I'm faced with the dilemma of taking up a line of work just to make money,so I can live close to him, in an area that doesn't really attract me. So, I'm living on the faith that whatever I take up will lead me to that "thing" I feel like I should be doing.....
I completely identify with your wanting to live in the moment there Trish. In fact, it is most important during these transitional times for one to have any chance of seeing that opportunity that most definitely will present itself to us. Then again, there is a feeling,in my case anyways, that goes along with the desire to live in the present. That is the feeling that there is nothing to accomplish, nothing that needs doing,etc....living the Tao....that can seriously conflict with motivation,ha! I feel there is some work I need to be doing, but, for the life of me I can't figure out what it is, so I have to submit to some form of work to make a living again and keep hoping I find that,,,,"thing" that stimulates my creativity again.
I guess I responded to your situation not because I have any answers, but because I can relate. On one hand, it can be the most tumultuous time, going into the unknown,,,and on the other, the most exhilarating time of our life. I guess this is where the "just do it" comes in,,,,,do what you have to, and keep an eye out for that turnoff,,it's just up ahead somewhere,,,L,,,,T
Just simultaneously over and under-whelmed.
Been here almost two months and haven't secured a job yet. Tough market and my resume's kind of spotty. Gonna have to stoop to Wal-Mart or something equally stupid if something better doesn't pop up soon.
Never thought I'd be a dad. Never wanted to be. Couldn't imagine trying to raise a sovereign being in THIS world. Plus, it really DOES take a village... Anyway, had my mind eventually changed by the woman I love and the universe. Took ten years! We never used contraceptives, but we never really tried either. Then, after the summer adventure, when we settled down out at the homestead, it happened! Now we're trying to adjust to whatever is coming our way in July...
To top it all off, I got pulled over twice a month ago for speeding, and the second time was by a state trooper who smelled alcohol... Going to court Monday and Wednesday to face those charges. First ever in my 41 years (25 of it driving). Never had any public intoxication or anything related. Sort of scary what it could do to license and our finances and my freedom. Have mainly been a driver (cdl) for jobs, but have been forced not to look in those areas now. Have talked to a couple lawyers and they think they could help me with some of it.
Now, don't get me wrong, I DEFINITELY don't condone drinking and driving, but besides speeding I wasn't swerving or wavering or anything. The first officer who was a seasoned local cop didn't suspect anything and I had blown into town at 50 entering a 30. He said because of my good driving record I could probably talk it down. The second one was pretty much looking for that sort of thing, so he pulled me over for just 7-8 over and proceeded to find more.
Anyway. Learning that lesson the hard way, but also don't want it to screw our life up. Especially with baby on the way. Plus Penelope is just now able to drive and such since getting over her broken ankle...
I just mention all of this because maybe the universe and everything is pushing all of us to change things up, grow up and evolve. And take it to the next level. But we need to engage our creative faculties and figure out what we want that to look like. Village anyone? Community? Even virtually, it can seed and lead to other things!...
It's like reading out of my thought-diary! It's amazing how connected we are in this community without even realizing it. I get caught up in the idea that I have to be "doing" something at all times. I'm trying to slowly trick myself into writing when I'm bored because that's the most important thing I could do right now. Btw if anyone wants to give me some feedback on my current novel I'm working on I would really appreciate it.
But I also have started using the quantum pause when I'm feeling stressed, overwhelmed, or having negative thoughts and it seems to help me live in the moment better and deal with whatever issues are at hand.
Thanks for chiming in with your "ditto", Todd, and everyone else. I sometimes feel like many people go through these kinds of shifts together and they don't even realize it. There's lots of factors involved I'm sure; I'm not an astrologist, but I do see how it makes sense that planetary and lunar cycles affect people. At this particular time of year, at least where I am in Manitoba, Canada, it's usually the coldest in February (this week we hit a windchill of -40ºF), and yet there are at least two more months of winter left. So there is a little bit of that 'yearning for spring' going on, symbolically as well as literally.
I like your approach to live on faith, Todd. I feel like that's what is calling out to me as well. My fear and programming has my future prospects in a narrow box, but I feel like life is calling me to blow that wide open and be willing to put down my strict conditions for the 'next thing'. My fear would change the window dressings, but everything would stay essentially the same. I want to surrender to the paradigm shift, to 'die' to this current known and be born again into new possibilities.
I was thinking about that today. At one point, I was terribly afraid of leaving the church or questioning my beliefs, because my conditioning told me that doing so was clearly the 'wrong' way that would put me on a path to hell. Somehow I overcame this fear and went for it anyway, because I clearly felt in my heart that staying with the church was not the right thing for me at the time (but to be clear, that was my path and I fully support anyone who belongs to a church community).
It's funny though how the thought of leaving my profession and facing financial insecurity seems so much more frightening. It feels very much like Jesus' parable of the rich man, who walked away sadly when Jesus told him that the only thing remaining was for him to sell his posessions and follow him. It's also what I've known my whole working life, so it's familiar and comfortable by now. There are many ways that I have been able to create a greater sense of fulfillment in my work, by going above and beyond the job description to help build team spirit, improve processes, and things like that, but I also feel very done with trying to prop myself up professionally, and I yearn to be more directly involved with helping people on a spiritual, emotional, and practical level.
The challenge that I feel personally, and perhaps it goes for all of us, is that it truly doesn't matter what we are doing for work or anything, it is the quality of our presence and our willingness to be in service to spirit that determines whether or not we will fulfill our purpose. So we could be at Wal-Mart or some job that bores us, but we can choose to make every human interaction count - to use those opportunities to make true spirit-to-spirit connections and possibly uplift someone's heart with a few words. The truth is that I'm just simply afraid to make those kind of intimate connections at work, or even at the supermarket for that matter. But it's a lie to pretend that I'll start if I'm in the 'right' place or position to do so, if I'm not already starting now.
Chris, I'm sure you'll be a wonderful father. I didn't see myself as a mother either, and I didn't know anything about raising or taking care of children. Believe me, it sorts itself out, and even if you hate being around other kids, you'll love your own. Especially in their infancy, they bring you to wonder of the present like nothing else.
That's a good reminder Cameron to focus on breathing; I know by default I'm a shallow breather, and I still haven't made it a habit to regularly take slow deep breaths.
Take care everyone,
Trish
I believe that the "challenge" you spoke of,,,"being impeccable at whatever you happen to be doing,is the biggest challenge we all face,as it involves being in the present. That is no easy task! Being of service to others, especially in random situations,seem to require being present, or the opportunity of the "moment" goes right by us. I think this happens to us endlessly, except for those rare moments we all talk about. We talk about them because they are so different than the rest of our day,,so real,and alive! I think we miss opportunities all the time,because we are usually occupied in thought, thoughts of the past or future. It is hard to imagine how say,,,picking up some litter,,,might lead to finding your life's work, or meeting someone you have some kind of destiny with, but, the universe is so amazing, and capable of arranging anything,,,,, that's where the faith comes in i guess....
I also have issue with going to work for a company, or,,in a line of work I might not have any interest in,just to survive,buy food, pay rent,etc.,,,it can be such a drain on the life force, or spirit, and it seems like such a sellout..I guess the trick might be to create the magic in something you really dislike,,ha! Is it blind faith? Is it foolish to think like this? Does it just keep feeding the system if we still go to work for it everyday?even if we are trying to create beauty within it? I often wish I had definite answers to those questions, and many others! I have no conclusions,,, but something is keeping me going.....L,,,T
Come to think of it that's why I came here. That's why I've looked into countless other sights. Looking for a community to be a part of.
Something real. Functional. Voluntary. Somewhere to try something. Somehow. Somewhere physical.
A place when within, certain understandings and agreements are acknowledged and maintained.
A place to contemplate, conceive and propagate a purpose to seed and nurture intelligent behavior.
The biggest part of it all ... people actually together engaging each other in a truly genuine fashion.
Seems so unlikely ...
I was just thinking of you...you were posting a lot recently, then you seemed to cool out,,,glad tohear your voice..I guess it's up to us to take all this info and do something with it..hope we can find our way
Right on guys, it sounds like we're all saying the same thing. We're looking for community! In one of the other posts, Starmonkey was talking about wanting to have a shared physical community space for growing food and living together. I know that Noa was looking for that as well. I've also been looking to sell my place and find land to transition to a more sustainable lifestlye. Part of my dream is that I would like form a land cooperative with other responsible people who would also live off the land, and we could share resources, help each other, and have a shared community space (I envision a community eating/living space with a larger kitchen so people could make meals together).
I hear you Todd on being in the present and trying to make the best of where we are - keep holding onto that faith, hope, and love!
I want to say I saw this due to Transformation course...I Love these communities in Sweden? where you rent in a semi-densely grouped assemblage of apartments or joined homes. Everyone takes turns cooking for all in nightly community meals, and there's land with shared gardens. Old, families and singles live close and help each other. People sign up for appropriate community chores like shoveling snow, planting veggies etc. I would be beyond happy there. Basically a village.
Yes, I have the same dream as you, Trish (and some of the others). Nothing ever came of this post but there are a few links at the bottom you can click on for more info about existing communities. http://www.gatheringspot.net/topic/relationshipinterpersonal-dynamics/invitation-live-others-similar-mind
There's a reason for all this angst we're experiencing. I keep reading well-founded predictions that people will start freaking out before The Fall. (I don't know what else to call it.) I see tensions escalating before they get better, but I'm beginning to believe that it's not going to be as hard a crash as I once thought. I'm speaking, of course, about the end to this unsustainable system we're living in. I don't know what will trigger it - economy, natural disaster, pandemic, false flag - but I do think we, as a collective, need some sort of catastrophe to wake us the fuck up. We certainly can't keep living like this.
And I think we all sense it. It's such an artificial system we're living in. Working by the clock and the calendar. Trading our time and talents for bits of soon-to-be-worthless paper.
At the same time, there are galactic influences always beaming us energies. We've passed through the end of a 26,000 year cycle and we're beginning a new one. Our sun is very active right now and directly controls life on earth.
So it's natural to feel fluxed. (Is that a word?) However, when the shit really hits the fan, it's going to take the 'awakened' ones to help calm everyone else down. People will likely panic when all we know starts to fall away. In preparation for that, meditation and other nurturing activities can help us chill out. Cameron's Quantum Pause sounds like a great idea.
I felt more fucked with than ever before this time around. There is absolutely no need to do this to people (daylight savings time shift). Just makes me think that the PTB enjoy exercising control over others, regardless of the alleged benefit or thorough lack thereof....
But daylight savings time also reveals to us how thoroughly tied into the matrix we really are - if we weren't, we wouldn't even know that anyone had declared some artificial bullshit shift of the clock...
which is utterly arbitrary in the bigger REAL picture....
Noa,
I don't know if I have the energy for this! I see a vast sea of people that can't swim (especially in their sleep) and every one of them is gonna need help. It sounds absolutely exhausting.
We'll get through it one step at a time, one breath at a time. Everything comes and goes in waves; maybe there will be a big kahuna wave, maybe it will be a series of smaller powerful waves. Either way, we can swim, sink, or surf. :-)
There are a few big changes going on for me now, it's interesting as decisions are finalized, how my ego and emotions oscillate between self-doubt and excitement, it's in these moments that I can really observe the ego as an evolutionary entity geared toward survival. Change is a-coming! Or maybe it will be more of the same but just look a little different. May I be willing to let go of the known!
Cheers,
Trish
It's good advice, Trish. Maybe I should rephrase my last comment...
"...when the shit really hits the fan, it's going to take the 'awakened' ones to stay calm."
You don't have to do anything, Gary. When you take care of yourself, by being relaxed, you will also strengthen others. (I'm learning how to do this myself.) And by 'awakened' ones I mean all of us who have peeked behind the veil.
And Chris, your comment brings back memories of when I worked split shift for Walt Disney World. Once every week, I had a "turnaround" where I worked until 11pm and had to be back on the clock at 8am the next morning. Of course, I never got used to it. I always wondered why they didn't make a workforce for each shift. Knowing what I know now about Disney, maybe it was just another cog in the matrix.
Let's take a break. All this clock talk reminds me of Charlie Chaplin's Modern Times:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IjarLbD9r30
Full movie here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_jLHVT0-GgM
Well, I signed an offer with another company and I've given notice at my current company. At the same time, I'm making plans to move into my mom's house with my daughter in the city, so that I won't have to commute so much for the time being - while my husband fixes up the basement and the house and gets ready to sell so that we can move on to a more affordable property, or to land where we can build a homestead. So the next few weeks will be in flux, but we're all looking forward to the change, and it feels like we're moving closer towards where we want to be. I don't want to be so busy all the time, and cutting two hours of driving out of my day should help :-)
Looking at my post that started this, it's interesting how I was getting that antsy feeling weeks before I knew what was coming down the pipe. It's been hard to know whether what we're doing is the 'right' decision, because of course very few choices in life are clear-cut. I'm trying to stop worrying about it and enjoy the ride.
Cheers, Trish
It sounds like you're right on schedule trish, and it doesn't matter whether it's the "right" decision because you just seemed to bring the change you needed right into the picture. One thing leads to another, and you have set it all in motion. As long as you're enjoying it, I'm sure you will find your way