In reflecting on my 50th year of existence as a third density incarnation in this section of the timeline - I wanted to post some things that I have found to be true for me and some musings on where we might all be going next.
They say that 50 is the "mid-life" age - and that there is usually a re-evaluationg of life, values, and what's important. I have to agree. If there is a mid-life crises - it is the stark realization that all of those years in the corporate Matrix didn't make you a better person, didn't create anything of real value, and has left your kids with the moral, financial and environmental mess.
At least that's what is seems like it would be if I were that person.
Since I was never really in the Matrix - my crises was more of a 5 year long slow dismantling. I have never worked a corporate job 9-5, never had any kids, and have instinctively avoided being in the system, while interfacing with it as necessary. What this created over the years was a sort of Matrix envy of those who were able to make it work for them - just like in the movie where the guy orders a steak at the restaurant and proceeds to eat and enjoy it. My friends got their corporate jobs, had the kids, moved into the big houses, had the bar-b ques and birthday parties. I wasn't unhappy in those times - as I was a free man - with my own business and my own plan, but somewhere in the background was this disturbing realization that there were no benefits at the end of the road. And I was not making the kind of money that I would need to create those for myself.
Many of my friends and others are now sitting pretty in the Matrix, with salaries over $100K, and all of the benefits that go with them including medical and retirement. Some are having that realization I mentioned earlier. And yet still - there is that envy. For some reason - we just have an innate insecurity that seems to stem from deep within us that makes us willing to give up a whole segment of our life, just to feel safe.
Never having had that luxury of feeling safe in a job or a career even, I have been forced to go deep within to access that ultimate trust we all have in our ability to "make it" no matter what - because that is what we are here to do. We get to this point in various ways, and this was just the path I was taken down to get there - those in the Matrix will find another way. But in the end - we all have an opportunity to access this inner trust in our higher selves, and in our Creator. This ultimately is what binds all of us, no matter where we are in the overall system.
I feel this issue of trust is so important to our evolution, that we will be given a large scale opportunity to access it on a global scale. Take your pick as to what that will look like - and I feel that it will be an appropriate reflection of where we are as a people - and how much of our hearts we have opened up. The more shut down we are - the bigger the opportunity will need to be. How that opportunity affects us individually will also depend on where we are in our hearts.
And so, as we get seemingly closer to this "event," with so many paradigms collapsing around us or about to, I find myself being pushed to open up more and more to that inner trust that everything is as it needs to be right now. Never mind the loss of income, the loss of a long term partner, the loss of the house (still in progress), the sale of the "valuables," the nagging realization that there is no unemployment, retirement, or social security coming. The Creator works in ways that we will never know - but there is a universal law of physics that states when a vacuum is created, it naturally wants to be filled up again. And so it is with me. Wonderful things are coming my way, with a new divine partner, a wonderful living space in Mt Shasta and a whole new community of loving supportive people (yes that includes you here at the G Spot!).
So in the end, I think we are all moving towards trust as being the new currency in a new paradigm. It is available to all, comes in unlimited quantity, and is easily shared. Can you imagine a gift society without money that simply operates on trust? Trust in the system, trust that you will get what you need, trust that what you choose to contribute will be accepted and valued, trust in your community.
Personally, I am ready. Bring on the event or whatever experience we need to get out of the Matrix for good. Not that it is bad, or evil - I do still have Matrix envy - but that it is a failing paradigm that cannot be sustained any longer. It must be replaced with something - and we decide what that will be. I say let's stop trusting in the external mechanisms - and create a reality that is based on the internal truths of love, and trust - in ourselves and our ability to "make it" - no matter what. Even being half way through the ride - I feel like the fun part is just getting started!