Shortly after my first OBE I have had another life changing experience happen to me. This time I did not really go "out" of my body, but instead went into the depths beyond.
I was lying down on the floor, watching my breath and feeling my body sink into the floor, when suddenly there was a shift of awareness. Suddenly, the floor beneath me vanished, and my sense of being shifted so deep inside, that I was beyond the physical body, the physical-energetic counterpart and the mind that connected me to the body. I was suspended in the void, and there was nothing except all-pervasive Peace and Love. This was the place where all creation came from, it was the unmanifested wholeness of the entire universe. There was nothing, but there was everything there, and Love, pure Love as far as awareness can reach. At the same time I did project – I was still connected with my body, and actually my level of physical awareness was much, much higher and clearer than it normally is. It was very interesting to watch this whole thing happen. I was… I guess I just was. Then there was the mind, which was like a surface of a clear lake, and through the mind there was a link to the body – physical and physical-energetic. Watching my mind from this perspective was like watching a bowl of soup, and choosing not to stir it. There was no need for thought at all. To think took a very conscious effort, and I wondered what it was like to think. I created a thought, and it felt so solid, like an iceberg rising from the surface of a lake, and another one built up on it, and another one, they rose like great mountains out of thin air. They weren’t thoughts about anything, they were just thoughts. And each rose more and more of itself. Then I withdrew my awareness, and all of these mountains collapsed into completely nothing. The mind was again a thin transparent film, a surface of a clear lake. The thoughts came out of nothing and ended up in nothing.
I heard my parents come in through the garage door, “Andrey, we came back from shopping, come help us carry the bags.” I gently brought my awareness back into my body, and went outside. I looked at the trees and the sky, and felt completely at one with it, I felt what the cool breeze felt, I knew what grass knew, what a wonder it was to be a cloud floating in the clear blue sky. Everything was alive, and I was connected and in communion with All Life. And by everything, I mean really everything – the bricks of a house were alive, the man-made car, every needle of a pine tree was a conscious being. I heard my mother say something to me, as I was watching the wonder of being completely here and now. I felt something inside of my mind pull, like a grappling hook gripping a part of me, then another, it kept going so subtly and I was aware of it less and less. I watched the whole world fade from being so completely alive and connected with me to that of being a raw physical reality that I usually found myself in. It was one of the saddest things I ever experienced – nothing changed in front of my eyes, yet everything changed.