A few days ago I had one of those moments of clarity, of feeling and observing my separatist illusory ego as it was running a typical mental conditioning program. And then I lost the sense of profound clarity just as fast as I got the glimpse of what I saw happening with such clarity. I should have begun writing a note to self immediately. I had the feeling that my ego was going right into protective mode, like a child saying, "That's not what I was doing!", and then moving on to other white noise chatter to wash away the clarity of the moment.